Happy (Belated) 2017!

New year, new start, new resolutions… or are they?

It’s the start of the new year and as I sit, like so many others, and try to make yet another list of resolutions, I can’t help but notice my first draft all looks achingly familiar; lose weight, read more, write more, save money…et cetera, et cetera. I can bet money on the fact all my lists have looked pretty much the same for the past five years or so. One can’t help but wonder if it’s worth making such a list at all, when I can probably lay money on the fact that come this time next year, I’ll sit and reflect on the year past, and ponder the year to come, and probably end up making a near-identical list again.

So do I just not bother? Do I accept defeat and acknowledge that I will likely carry on exactly as I have been doing for the rememberable past? And is that really so bad if I do?

Perhaps reflection on the year just past and what I achieved can bring a better understanding to me.

  • Lose weight

I have (finally) reached a point in life where I no longer feel the need to consistently weigh myself. My weight has always fluctuated a lot, but I can now acknowledge I am small, and, most importantly, I am finally healthy. I eat my fruit and my greens but I also love to sometimes indulge on cheese and wine. I run and dance and go to the gym, but I don’t punish myself for calling it off when it’s too cold and wet outside to want to go. I have found the sacred ‘balance’ I’d once believed to be myth, and, for the most part, my weight has plateaued at a size I can be quite content with. Yes, I think I’ll always ideally like to ‘just lose a few pounds’, but to be honest, I’m not too fussed either way.

  • Save more

Another year on, and do I have a savings account blossoming with a near-ready deposit for a house like I might like? No. Like, hell no. But, actually, I’m slowly chipping away at the debts I have had, and I’m in a better position than I was. My career is growing and I’m earning more. I have two business on the side which I love and which are growing. I’ve also added umpteen pairs of shoes to my ever growing collection and my wardrobe is bursting more than ever. I’ve had luxurious holidays and delicious dinners and copious amounts of wine and champagne. In short, I’ve had a bloody fabulous year doing (and buying) the things that make me happy. Would I rather I’d sat at home, bored and shoeless to have a bit more sat in savings? Not really. Following the advice of my spirit guide, Carrie Bradshaw, ‘I like my money where I can see it – hanging in my closet.’

  • Read more & Write more

My eternal internal struggle. Day after day I berate myself for not having read enough, or written enough, or blogged enough. But what did I achieve instead? Well, quite a lot, actually. I finally, after years of missing it, got back into theatre, and rehearsed and performed two shows; Legally Blonde: The Musical and Jack and the Beanstalk, the pantomime. In principal roles, no less – the principal girl in the panto, in fact! (Which furthered my belief I was born to be a princess, it felt so natural!) Something I’ve been dreaming of for a long time, and which makes my soul happy on a level I can’t describe. It’s been hard work, it’s taken so much free time from me and from my partner and my family, but the rewards have been worth it tenfold.

Speaking of my partner, I’ve found a man who makes me happier than I’ve ever been. Who cares for me, and supports my dreams, however farfetched. Who’s mind is on the same level as mine. Who I want to, and plan to, build my whole future with. We’ve had our challenges, the island-hopping, the time apart, but we’ve had so many amazing adventures too. Trips away, fabulous dinners, long lunches in the sunshine, lazy days at the beach and countless evenings in snuggled up together. He makes me laugh more than I thought I ever would, and love more fiercely than I ever knew was possible. Would I have changed a single moment of any of that? Not a chance.

I’ve also spent as much time as possible with my family and in particular my darling baby brother, who is scarily approaching two all too quickly! He grows and changes so much every week, I don’t want to miss a moment. It’s all going so quickly, from the baby boy I would carry around this time last year, to the whirlwind of a toddler running around now. I want to treasure every second of these amazing times with him and I’m pretty happy I’ve done that in 2016.

So maybe 2016 just wasn’t the year for my reading and writing, and maybe that’s actually okay. Maybe it was just meant to be my year on the stage, to find my sparkle again. My year for falling in love again, with Ben and with myself. My year for watching my brother growing up and seeing the little boy he’s becoming. My year for starting up 2 businesses and watching them grow.

I’ll always be a reader and I’ll always be a writer, but I’m a performer too, and a girlfriend, and a sister and a daughter and a businesswoman – and, just maybe, it’s okay that I don’t have to be all of these things all the time… maybe it’s time I cut myself a little slack.

Maybe my resolutions don’t have to be things I try to punish myself with, maybe they can be things I want to continue doing, or things to make the most of, or something to challenge myself with.

So, what are my resolutions for 2017?

  • Laugh. A lot.
  • Be happy.
  • Keep performing.
  • Enjoy time away with Ben.
  • (Enjoy time here with Ben!)
  • Move to a new home that’s ‘ours’.
  • Spend time with my beautiful family.
  • Eat good food.
  • Drink good wine.
  • Keep building my businesses.
  • Do something that scares me.
  • Keep dreaming big.
  • Never lose my sparkle again.
  • And hopefully read a few good books somewhere along the way 😉

Miss you all.

With love,
from Paris x

Hello, November!

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So, somehow, it’s freaking November already! I have absolutely no idea where this year has gone, it seems to have whizzed by in a blink.

Now, as I prepare myself to mutter my apologies, which are becoming painstakingly familiar, I think we can all just admit I can be crowned Shittest Blogger of 2016 and be done with it. I accept my fate, as no matter how good my intentions have been, for the life of me I have struggled to actually get shit done.

So what has me crawling back out of my cave today, you may ask? Well, it’s November first, which, as many of my fellow bloggers and writers know, means one very important thing to us: it’s Nanowrimo time.

Despite a severe lack of planning (AKA, I haven’t even entirely settled on a story yet), I am determined to use this to pull me out of my reading/writing slump this year! 30 days, 50,000 words, 1 novel.

Am I delusional to be diving in with so little preparation? Quite possibly. Then again, last year I think I decided on a story on about November 6th, and still managed to finish on November 30th (at around 11.57pm, but that’s besides the point!), so I know it can be done.

Admittedly, my efforts of beginning thus far this evening have mainly consisted of testing about 7 variations of how to hand letter the ‘Nanowrimo’ header for my Bullet Journal (my new obsession, and what I’m hoping will assist me in pulling my finger out my arse and keeping my chaotic life rather more organised!), but I will get there despite my procrastination! (The more observant may note this post in itself to be a procrastination, but shhhh!)

So anyway, that’s me all revved up and ready to get back on the horse this November! Best of luck to everyone else taking part too! Xxx

And in other news…

As it’s been a horrendously long period of time since I last blogged, here’s a little catch up one what’s new in the world of Paris…princess

I’m being a princess!

Well, obviously I’m a princess everyday, but sometimes it’s nice to have it recognised on a more public scale  😉 so it’s pretty cool that I landed the role of principal girl, AKA Princess Jill in this year’s pantomime, Jack and the Beanstalk, on at the Jersey Opera House. We’ve only started rehearsing recently, but it’s a great laugh and a really fab cast.

A little slice of heaven

At the end of September, Ben whisked me away on our first holiday together, to the incredible island of Mauritius. I can’t put into words how beautiful it was, as it wouldn’t do it justice (or maybe I’m just a shit writer?!) but it was heaven, and the whole trip was just pure bliss.

Inter-island relationsmouse

Speaking of Ben, we’ve managed to swing it with work so that he splits his time between Jersey and Guernsey, meaning as of two weeks ago, he now lives with me! At least, he does for 5 nights a week, but that’s a hell of a lot better than it was, so I’ll take it. And yeah, I’m still pretty disgustingly smitten.  This weekend I even had us in Mickey & Minnie Mouse costumes for a Halloween party at my dad’s, and it was pretty much the cutest thing ever. (He’s going to kill me for putting this up but I love it!)

Anyway, better dash, I’ve got a book to write this month!

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An overdue check-in!

Hey guys! So no matter how good my intentions have been over the last few months regarding my reading and blogging, I’ve struggled to actually put them in to practise.

For the most part, I blame this dude…

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No, no, that’s not David Tennant, that’s my boyfriend, Ben. This handsome devil has been taking up most of my time for the last four months, so I blame him for my lack of productivity on the blogging front.

To be fair, I can’t entirely blame him, as he happens to live on the lesser island of Guernsey, so our time together is sadly somewhat limited, but weekends together are always amazing. I can’t deny it, he’s a cutie. Despite his best efforts at putting on a grouchy, cynical front most of the time, he’s a downright sweetie, and he makes me very happy.

Well, apologies for the lack of book talk, just wanted to gush about my man, to be honest – plus he was sulking about not being on my blog and wanted a post about him – hence all the flattery! 😉

Hope everyone is well!

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Blog Tour Book Review: A Summer of Secrets, by Alice Ross

One long hot summer. Secrets never stay buried for long…

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Portia is determined to restore Buttersley Manor, her family’s crumbling ancestral home, to its former glory. Yet she has a feeling that there are a few forgotten skeletons in the dust-covered cupboards.

Jenny has put her life on hold for far too long. It’s time to finally start living and to dig up those hopes and dreams she’s kept hidden all these years – but is she brave enough?

Rich is happily married with a beautiful wife and lovely daughter. In fact, his world is perfect until a very unexpected consequence of his past walks through the door…

Joe would like nothing more than to travel back in time to when he and Gina were happy. But is it too late to rescue what they once had?

One thing’s for sure, nothing’s ever quite what it seems when it comes to life in the country!

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Blog Tour Book Review: Summer at Rose Island, by Holly Martin

Fall in love with the gorgeous seaside town of White Cliff Bay this summer and enjoy long sunny days, beautiful beaches and… a little romance.

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Darcy Davenport is ready for a fresh start. Determined to leave a string of disastrous jobs and relationships behind her, she can’t wait to explore White Cliff Bay and meet the locals.

When Darcy swims in the crystal clear waters of the bay, she discovers the charming Rose Island Lighthouse. But it’s not just the beautiful building that she finds so intriguing…

Riley Eddison doesn’t want change. Desperate to escape the memories of his past, he lives a life of solitude in the lighthouse. Yet he can’t help but notice the gorgeous woman who swims out to his island one day.

Darcy is drawn to the mysterious and sexy Riley, but when it seems the town is trying to demolish his home, she soon finds herself having to pick sides.

She’s fallen in love with White Cliff Bay. But is that all Darcy’s fallen for?

Pull up a deck chair, sink back with a bowl of strawberry ice cream and pick up the summer read you won’t be able to put down.

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Legally Blonde: the Musical 💖

So despite the very best of intentions when I put up my last post promising to be better, I was rather foolish about my timings, as the production I was in was just about to go full pelt on rehearsals and then hit the stage.

So, what’s consumed my life the last few months instead of reading? Being in Jersey Green Room Club’s production of Legally Blonde: The Musical. If you haven’t seen this show, I absolutely insist you hunt it down. I’ve been a huge Legally Blonde fan since it first came out, and ohmigod, the musical does not disappoint!

As some of you may know, performing arts has always been the other big love of my life, alongside reading, but I gave it up about 5 or 6 years ago after spending years battling with stage fright to the point of severe panic attacks when I had to perform, until I had to put my own health first and make the decision to give it up. It broke my heart, and every time I have been to the theatre in recent years, no matter how much I’ve loved it, there is always a little piece of my heart that cracks with longing, envy and regret.

As a lot of you may also know, I’ve been on a hell of a personal journey in the last year or so, and am finally in a place where I feel more comfortable and more confident in myself. So, in October, I decided to go along to the auditions on a whim, hoping to get a place in the chorus. Not only did I get a part, but a principal role of Margot, Elle’s quirky best friend and one 3rd of her Greek Chorus, who happens to be my favourite character (with Elle, of course!).

13043282_10209690945657399_8869155335259057662_nRehearsals have been pretty crazy over the last few months but my GOD, have I loved every second. Right from the word ‘go’ I had no qualms about singing or dancing in front of the other cast in rehearsals, which would normally have been a big issue for me, and I have been incredibly lucky that the other 2 thirds of the Greek Chorus have been amazing and we have become such close friends, supporting each other through it all.

When the curtain went up on our first night at the Jersey Opera House earlier this month, I had butterflies in my tummy but, for the first time ever, in a good way – I was excited! Come the final performance after an intense couple of weeks on stage, I was in tears by the time the curtain came down, overwhelmed by how much I had loved every second of being part of such an incredible show, part of such a wonderful cast, and mostly for overcoming my fears and allowing myself to finally love performing the way I’ve always wanted to; whole-heartedly and fearlessly.

The show finished last weekend, and this week has been a strange crash back down to reality! But there’s not a doubt in my mind that I’ll be back on that stage as soon as possible. As for my gorgeous new friends, we’ve started our own Lunch Club so we can still see each other every week, with a few random dinners and nights out thrown in for good measure every now and then 😉

On the plus side, this does mean I will finally have more time to catch up on my reading and reviewing! I’m away a lot over the next few weeks, but will be doing what I can, so just bear with me for now!

Missed y’all!

*Snaps* xxx

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Hi, It’s Me, I’m Not Dead!

After realising it’s been a whole three months since my last post, I figured it was about time I finally crawled out from under my rock and put pen to paper (or fingers to keys) and made myself get something down. I’d normally be writing my monthly wrap-up post about now, so I guess I’ll try to do a bit of a quarterly one instead!

I’ve sat here several times attempting to put together a post, but somehow come up short. I guess for starters, I’m not even entirely sure why I haven’t been writing in the first place. I have been busy, incredibly so, but it’s something a bit more that.

I seemed to somehow rediscover my writing spark around October, and bashed out a new first draft surprisingly easily in November, but some point after that I seemed to lose my mojo a bit again. I guess the feeling encompassed most aspects of my life really; work, friendships, love, health.

Some old, familiar problems started to rear their ugly head again, which had me at a worrying precipice for a while, but I’ve spent the last month to six weeks regaining some control and getting things back in order again, focussing on the healthy, positive person I want to be, and I’m pleased to say I’m in a much better place for it.

In terms of relationships, I have both started seeing someone and ended it within the time I’ve been absent. A guy who seemed to pretty much tick all the boxes – good looking, sweet, caring, funny, just downright lovely – but I realised that yet again I was probably holding on to things for all the wrong reasons, and ignoring some fairly glaringly obvious gut feelings, until they became quite blindingly unavoidable. But I’ve realised it’s okay, and that I was coming dangerously close to once again settling for something I knew wasn’t right because perhaps it seemed safe, reliable or easy. But the truth is, I don’t want that, and it was getting in the way of what I truly do want. I’d rather have something unpredictable and at times difficult, something I’d have to work at, if the feelings are right. I know even more now what I do want and that I’m not prepared to settle for less – no matter how many boxes are ticked, it’s not going to be right if the ones left unchecked are passion and connection, and there’s nothing like someone swooping into your life and making you feel all those right things to remind you of what’s important!

So for now, I’m using my single days to focus on making the best of me. Taking care of my health, spending time with friends and family, and working towards the goals I somewhat neglected last year.

As for the bookish side of things, I’ve done some reading and some writing, though not nearly enough of either! But my heads in a better place, and – despite a sincere lack of free time – I’m ready to try and nail down on this again. I’d wanted to have a finish draft of my first book by now, and instead I’ve put off editing and am sat in the same place I was a year a go, but now with two barely revisited first drafts instead of one! So, I have rescheduled my deadline till the end of this year, and now need to work my little butt off to make sure I actually get it done – wish me luck!

Now… how the hell have you all been??

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