So despite the very best of intentions when I put up my last post promising to be better, I was rather foolish about my timings, as the production I was in was just about to go full pelt on rehearsals and then hit the stage.
So, what’s consumed my life the last few months instead of reading? Being in Jersey Green Room Club’s production of Legally Blonde: The Musical. If you haven’t seen this show, I absolutely insist you hunt it down. I’ve been a huge Legally Blonde fan since it first came out, and ohmigod, the musical does not disappoint!
As some of you may know, performing arts has always been the other big love of my life, alongside reading, but I gave it up about 5 or 6 years ago after spending years battling with stage fright to the point of severe panic attacks when I had to perform, until I had to put my own health first and make the decision to give it up. It broke my heart, and every time I have been to the theatre in recent years, no matter how much I’ve loved it, there is always a little piece of my heart that cracks with longing, envy and regret.
As a lot of you may also know, I’ve been on a hell of a personal journey in the last year or so, and am finally in a place where I feel more comfortable and more confident in myself. So, in October, I decided to go along to the auditions on a whim, hoping to get a place in the chorus. Not only did I get a part, but a principal role of Margot, Elle’s quirky best friend and one 3rd of her Greek Chorus, who happens to be my favourite character (with Elle, of course!).
Rehearsals have been pretty crazy over the last few months but my GOD, have I loved every second. Right from the word ‘go’ I had no qualms about singing or dancing in front of the other cast in rehearsals, which would normally have been a big issue for me, and I have been incredibly lucky that the other 2 thirds of the Greek Chorus have been amazing and we have become such close friends, supporting each other through it all.
When the curtain went up on our first night at the Jersey Opera House earlier this month, I had butterflies in my tummy but, for the first time ever, in a good way – I was excited! Come the final performance after an intense couple of weeks on stage, I was in tears by the time the curtain came down, overwhelmed by how much I had loved every second of being part of such an incredible show, part of such a wonderful cast, and mostly for overcoming my fears and allowing myself to finally love performing the way I’ve always wanted to; whole-heartedly and fearlessly.
The show finished last weekend, and this week has been a strange crash back down to reality! But there’s not a doubt in my mind that I’ll be back on that stage as soon as possible. As for my gorgeous new friends, we’ve started our own Lunch Club so we can still see each other every week, with a few random dinners and nights out thrown in for good measure every now and then 😉
On the plus side, this does mean I will finally have more time to catch up on my reading and reviewing! I’m away a lot over the next few weeks, but will be doing what I can, so just bear with me for now!